Friday, January 28, 2011

I'm afraid of what people are thinking

Therapy. Massage, psycho, hypno, physical, trigger point.

The point to therapy, no matter the type, is biofeedback. Tapping into the systems that sustain us, "driving a shaft" to find core elements in conflict. Always listening for dissonance. The point of therapy is to shift one of the "notes" ever so slightly so as to shift dissonance to harmony. But when there's layer after layer of inharmonious vibes occurring at multiple levels, the inner cacophony takes years to shift, one layer at a time. The result, in therapy, is the creation of a very slow harmony, one shifting note at a time. I imagine it to sound like the warm-up of a large orchestra; the sounds, all mashed together, inseparable from one another until each discordant note shifts, shifts, shifts into harmony with the pure, solid "A" note of the oboe. (As an ironic side note that bears on my own biofeedback, I'm unable to sustain an "A" while singing (the A440), so if I'm my own oboe, I'm a little off.)

The practical meaning behind all of this is this: when one note shifts into harmony with the notes around it, progress is made, but its harmony makes the listener aware of another dissonance lurking just beneath it. In my own life, when I shifted my own perception last year during hypnotherapy, and now that I've adjusted to the new sound of inner discordance, I have heard a brand new dissonance, one that, if I am able to adjust it, might set a number of inharmonious vibes right.